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Sep 18, 2011

Trust



Just when I thought I was so sick and worse off than most people, I searched lyme disease on tumblr.  I was brought back to reality when I read so many different stories with so many different struggles. I’m so grateful that I’m not as bad as these people.
Yes, I can’t remember anything I study (I need to keep a 3.5 gpa in order to maintain my scholarship).  
Yes, I can’t dance anymore- or do many things I love.
Yes, because of my current treatment (picc line and antibiotics) I can’t go in the ocean or have much of a social life.
Yes, I’ve been on different antibiotics for almost 3 years (sick for about 7 years) and nothing has worked yet.
Yes, I’m always in pain and struggle with many symptoms- depression, fatigue, memory and joint pain- are a few.
-BUT-
I must remember that God has a plan for me and that it is a good plan.  I must remember that even if I don’t get better, it is for a reason.  He is sovereign, and FOR A LITTLE WHILE will I struggle.  If I am not healed here, I will be healed in heaven.  Even if I’ve been put in the position of a helpless person so often, HE IS MY HELP. He is in control, He knows the steps I take.  What a comfort.
During this trial, I’ve learned so much.  I’ve gained a bigger heart for others going through trials.  I’ve learned so much from God’s Word and have strengthened my faith.  I’ve been able to be an example to so many others.  I only pray that I would continue to do God’s will- even if it means not being healed right away and losing my scholarship. He is good.

1 comment:

  1. Wow Sohpie! I wish I had the outward perspective that you do. You're such a godly young woman and personally, I think you are a beautiful daisy already. You just grew in the middle of a concrete sidewalk...earth. Looooovee you!!!!! I'll be praying for you!

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